Living the life of a Cougar

So here's my story. I was once beautiful and guys would fall at my feet but as I grew up, guys would run from me. I was once married into a marriage I never wanted but in the end it was for nothing. My beauty years have been taken from me and I had no life because of it. People tell me I will find the perfect person for me. They say I have a kind heart and a great personality but what is that if guys only go for looks?? This I ask. Younger guys love me because of my big heart, but how can I do that to them when I'm 10 years older than they?? I feel loved by these younger male but is this right?? I love a guy that is 10yrs younger than me but is this right?? I keep asking myself, why does he love me?? Is it fair for him?? As much as I love him I want to be fair and hope he is happy. I want him to be free. I want him to enjoy life.